A Divorce He Regrets (Raina and Alexander) novel Chapter 250

RAINA

He had to have lost it. For I didn't understand what part of his brain thought it would be a good idea to even think about indulging Nathan.

“Hey, look at me…” Alex's voice pulled me out of my thoughts, where it seemed to have gotten darker to today. I was so done with Nathan and his existence that I just wanted to be in a world where he didn't exist at all. “I'm sure Dom means well. Your brother would never do anything that would hurt you. I need you to remember that, okay?” His voice was soft. It was a gentle stroke to the nagging feeling that was clawing at my mind.

I married him. I was his wife again. I swallowed hard at the reality. The switch in thought almost made me choke in my own spit. “I'm fine…” I said between coughs. Alex rubbed one hand on my back, up and down until I settled while the other was placed firmly, yet gently on my cheek.

“I'll go get you some water, stay here…” he announced, having stared at me for a moment. His brows creased into a frown, he had something on his mind but he reserved from telling me.

And even if I wanted to stop him from leaving and force him into telling me what was eating at him, Alex was gone out of the room in a flash.

What was up with him?

“Here you go, got you something to eat too. I know you're a sweet tooth.” I was. My chest tightened at this gesture. Last time I was pregnant, I hated being one.

The Alexander Sullivan of that year was a nightmare that I was too scared to leave. I loved him enough not to mind the red flags that glarred in my face.

And yet here was a different part of him. I loved this one dearly. Just as much as I did his old self if not more.

“You're overthinking again baby…” He broke the silence and pinched my cheeks lightly. His expression was laced with both worry and care.

I was overthinking again. “Do you want to talk about it?”

I shook my head. I didn't want to speak about a topic we had talked about over and over. I thought thay was it, but he pulled me to his lap, my back pressed against his hard chest.

He turned me to face him, so that I was straddled on his thighs. His hands fell to my sides, holding me firmly. “That's like telling me not to love you, Raina. Its impossible…” he said in a low tone that made my insides do a backflip.

A shudder ran its course through me. “Alex…” What was I calling his name for? I had no idea.

He pushed himself forward, closing the gap that stood between us. “Mrs Sullivan, we got married and I didn't even get to kiss you…” Another shudder, this time stronger. His gripped tightened slightly, and I saw his Adam's apple move up and down as he swallowed.

Our wedding was only out of convenience, there were no preparations for anything that gave any signs of romanticism.

My eyes moved down his face and fell on his lips and this time I swallowed, the knot in my throat refusing to move. I took a sharp breath when I saw that he too was eyes glued to my lips like I was his.

Just do it, Raina. What are you so afraid of? My mind asked me.