Psycho - Headless Horsemen MC novel Chapter 40

- Jax -

Harleys now 18 weeks along, the first half of this pregnancy has gone by so quickly, the months of morning sickness really took everything she had to give, she had to spend most of her time in bed, luckily that cleared up around 2 weeks ago. Today's the day we will find out what we are having, Harley thinks it's a girl, I think it's a boy. The appointment is at 5 pm, we have Gunner, Shelby, Betty and Shark Eye's coming with us to find out together.

"Jax, have you seen my shirt?" Harley yells out from the bathroom, "You mean my shirt?" I reply with a smile, she nudges me with her shoulder before grabbing the shirt out of my hands "It's the only thing that fits me right now, I need to go clothes shopping" she grumbles to herself, "How about I take you after the appointment? And we can grab some baby stuff afterwards too" her face lights up before she throws her arms around me, "Oohh thank you handsomely!" She squeals.

We make our way downstairs and have breakfast sitting at the table with everyone else, "Are you excited for your appointment love?" Betty asks as she places a plate of food infront of Harley and I, I thank her quietly while Harley replies to her "I can't wait, it's been so long since we have seen the little devil" she says tapping her stomach softly causing the baby to slightly kick.

"I just wish Matthew would have been apart of this" she says quietly while she begins to play with he food infront of her plate, "Yeah too bad he's burning in hell as we speak" Gunner replies, she stops playing with the food and drops her fork onto the plate, "Oh you didn't tell her?" he asks me, she turns to me and looks me dead in the eyes "Tell me what?" She asks calmly.

"I killed your brother" I blurt out, good going Jax really smooth. Her mouth drops while she stares at me, "You killed him and didn't even tell me?" She questions, "It's not like that Harley, just with everything that happened it slipped my mind I promise" she stands up from the table and dusts her clothes off "I'm going out," she says as she walks out the wooden doors.

I run after her catching up to her at one of the SUV's, "Come on kitten, let's go inside and talk about this" I say holding onto her wrist, she slowly turns to me her eyes cold "I'll meet you's at the appointment" she shakes her arm away from me and climbs into the SUV.

I watch as the car pulls out from the compound and drives off down the street, Jax you fucking idiot, I groan loudly before turning around and heading inside, "I'll be in my office until 5 if anyone needs me" I speak as I make my way across the room, I don't bother to look at anyone to see whether they're listening or not.

Once in my office I lock the doors behind me and bury myself into paperwork, Harley won't do anything stupid, not now she's pregnant, she barley even kills people anymore. The phone begins to ring and I pick it up "Killer speaking" I say into the phone, I wait for a reply when finally a voice comes through the phone "Brother we have a problem" I hear a thick Spanish accent, "Ricci?" I ask, "Who else is Spanish and calls you, burro?" 'donkey?' He replies getting agitated by the second, "Well what do you want?" I ask flicking through the paperwork on my desk, "Some of my enemies have found out about Harley" he says through the phone, "They already knew about Harley why are you telling me this?" I question him.

I look over to the clock and see there's an hour until it's 5, I close my eyes and wait for Ricci's response, "No you idiot about Harley being pregnant" my eyes shoot open and I sit up in my seat, "What have you heard?" I ask him tapping my finger on the table waiting for him to speak, "Last I heard they were on their way to America that was a little over 5 hours ago, no one at the airports have spotted them so I don't know where they have landed, just keep an eye on her, they play dirty, they won't hesitate to kill her especially if she puts up a fight".

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!" I yell, "I'll let you know when I get ahold of her" I say slamming the phone down hanging it up, now I have the fucking cartels after her, the phone begins to ring again, "What the fuck do you want Ricci I told you I wo-" I begin to yell down the phone, "Killer? It's Sherif Carter, look we got a phone call about an accident..." he continues to speak but the words begin to merge into one another becoming nonsense, the blood drains from my body and everything in my goes numb.

I look up from Harley with tears in my eyes "Is our baby okay?" I barley whimper out, his face and eyes soften and he doesn't need to say anything at all, he just shakes his head I look back over to Harley "Thank you doctor" I mumble under my breath, "I'll be back in an hour to check on her" I nod before hearing the door close behind me, the sound of silence that fills the room shatters my heart and soul. Our baby, so innocent, so fucking innocent.

I walk to Harley's side and sit down next to her, I take her hand in mine and stroke my thumbs over her hands, "Come home to me Harley, I'll be waiting I promise", slowly people begin to flood into her room sneaking in, in small groups to see her. I haven't told anyone anything about the baby, Harley deserves to find out before anyone else, I can't even look at anyone, I just stare down at her small hand in mine and wait for them to leave.

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I'm awoken by the feeling on fingers tracing my hand, I begin to wake up more and snap my eyes up to be met by Harleys beautiful ones staring back at me, "Oh good you're awake, how long have you been up for kitten?" I say caressing her face with my hand, "Not long, a few hours if that, apparently they woke me up early this morning" she informs and I smile and nod my head still looking up to her, "Why didn't you wake me kitten?" I ask her, she laughs to herself before answering me "Because you looked so cute and tired, I wanted you to rest" she says while playing with my messy hair.

"They wouldn't tell me much, well not until you woke up or someone else came, why is everything okay?" For a split second I had thought that yesterday had been an ugly nightmare, but unfortunately its real-life, I look over to the love of my life and wonder to myself how I'm about to break the news to her, my heart shatters as I watch her face slowly realise that her worst fears had been confirmed. " I'm so sorry kitten" her eyes begin to pool with tears, heartbroken sobs begin to escape her perfect lips and whatever heart I had left in me had officially been crushed I sit on the side of her bed and pull her into me holding onto her tightly I can't lose you too, I'm going to fix this kitten, I promise you.