All I want is mate! I want what is mine! To mark her, hold her and mate her! Chaos snarls.
And how do you think my mate's wolf will react with you snarling and speaking like that? I highly doubt she will warm up to you straight away! And Nathan says I am the one that needs to be more approachable. I scoff.
Chaos growls and snaps at me before blocking our conversation, so I can't mind-link him anymore.
It was time for me to rest anyway before my journey tomorrow.
The sun is rising. I feel nervous and worry about the thought of leaving the pack for so long and the thought of not finding my mate. I don't want to return without her knowing it would be bad for the pack and myself. I struggle to control Chaos as it is. I can't imagine how much worse he would be if we couldn't find her.
I need to put my faith in the Moon Goddess. Surely, she doesn't want the Lycan breed to die out? Does she not want me happy? And not just me but my mate?
Maybe she has been looking for me and wants me? Or maybe she doesn't want a mate? And that is why we can't find her because she doesn't want to be found or wants a werewolf, not a Lycan? What if she rejects us?
Stressing out, I pace back and forth, trying not to panic.
"Alpha, are you okay?" Nathan asks. I look up and snarl.
Shit! Chaos! Stop! I yell at him.
My eyes are black when I look up at Nathan with my Lycan eyes. Nathan slowly backs away, pulling out a dose of Wolfsbane in case I attack him.
Fighting Chaos, I bang my back up against the wall. Then, after a few moments, I hunch over to catch my breath.
Looking up at Nathan, he sighs with relief when he sees I'm in control again.
"What was that all about?" Nathan asks. I was freaking out that when we find our mate, she might reject us because I'm a Lycan, or maybe she doesn't want a mate.
Chaos must have been listening and became angry at my thoughts as they could, unfortunately, be possible.
Nathan places his hand on my shoulder, "Alpha, any she-wolf would be a fool to reject you. I know behind Chaos and your lack of calmness that there is a good man and a good Lycan underneath it all," he says.
"Nathan, you don't have to lie to me like that...' I say to him.
After a while, I learn Alpha Dan is a great Alpha. He knows how to discipline his pack, and he brings wealth and good fortune to everyone. All eyes are on me. The men glare, and the she-wolves try to avoid going anywhere near me.
Is my reputation really this bad? I link Nathan.
Honest truth, or do you prefer the lie? He links back.
Honest truth. I link.
Yes, it's bad... really bad. He replies.
I let out a heavy sigh and attempt to smile gently at a she-wolf passing by. Her eyes bulge, and she screams, running off.
"What happened? What did you do, Alpha Maximus?" Alpha Dan asks sternly.
I put my hands up in the air in surrender 'Nothing! I swear I just smiled at her," I explain.
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