The Bully's Obsession novel Chapter 56

　　HAYDEN

　　An irritated look crossed my face as I stared at the called ID

　　"You sure took enough time " he spoke as soon as I answered 

　　"I had business to handle ,you could have picked a better time brother "

　　"By the way why did you find her back? You've ranted for so long how she isn't good for me so... "

　　 "Because you didn't want to find her anymore ... and it was changing you into a person we all don't recognize "

　　"And you think she'll be able to help me?  That's fucking stupid "

　　You can always let her go if you're not too keen on having her back "

　　A pregnant silence followed but I could imagine the mocking expression I knew he had on his face. 

　　"I thought as much.. " 

　　A low sound escaped my throat at his words,  he shouldn't sound so confident that he did the right thing.   She might just end up destroying me instead of fixing me... Not that I believe I can be fixed anyway  ..I'm  too far damaged for that. 

　　"Since you seem to know about everything then did you also know you have a five year old niece? "

　　Another long silence followed  , it 

　　"What did you say? "

　　The shock in his voice told me that he didn't know that..... well until now. 

　　"I thought as much " I repeated 

　　We discussed for a while,  which was the longest we've ever done in years, it couldn't have been more than ten minutes though because I was impatient to return to return back to her... 

　　There was a job,  but that would have to wait for now.. I ended the call and made my way back to the living room,  only that she wasn't there.. Neither was Hazel 

　　I found her in the bedroom,  she stood facing the window,  her back faced to me, as if sensing my presence she turned around to face me... 

　　One glance at her told me something was terribly wrong. 

　　Her eyes were red and swollen, like she'd been crying ....maybe for the past ten minutes. 

　　"Gracie ?" I couldn't control the way my body tensed in alarm as I scanned my gaze around for what could be the cause.. 

　　Another glance at her expression I found the quick answer to my question. 

　　It was me. 

　　She was in this state because of me.

　　I walked in hasty steps to complete the distance between us. 

　　"What happened? " I spoke softly this time. 

　　Her gaze looked distant even though she was staring at me. 

　　"It's  nothing , it doesn't matter what i want anyway does it? "  as she spoke,  a low bitter laugh escaped her mouth  

　　My heart clenched tightly at the bitterness and sadness in her tone  .

　　"Tell me..... please" 

　　She tilted her gaze to look at me then as if observing me for the very first time. 

　　"I don't want to Hayden, don't do it please " there was a strong plea in her voice even though it sounded firm. 

　　I stared at her confused for a moment  , I searched her gaze wondering to what she was referring to. 

　　I was slightly taken aback when she made a tight sudden grip on my arm. 

　　Because she seemed to draw out every naked emotion inside of me, exposing them raw. 

　　The best of them... And the worse. 

　　I couldn't control the way I feel making it all go wrong.

　　Just like an addiction. 

　　A fatal one that wouldn't stop until it ruined us both. 

　　I closed my eyes,  because I couldn't look into her eyes,  the raw emotions I saw there tore at my heart,  threatening to rip it off my chest. 

　　"I really want to care.. really want so much... So much that I can't give and .... but i don't know how to do all that....i really don't" 

　　I stiffened when I felt arms wrapped around my mid level tightly .

　　I inhaled and exhaled continuously feeling nothing but confusion. 

　　Why was she doing this?  

　　I couldn't give her anything , I deserved all her hate,  even though the thought of her hating me made me feel so cold and empty . 

　　"Then I'll help you... allow me to help you Hayden..I can teach you how to feel then ..help us" she murmured 

　　I tensed even more when she pressed her lips softly on one of my shoulders. 

　　"Why are you doing this? " I croaked out in a rough voice I didn't recognize to be mine. 

　　"I know you won't let me go..... how about I try to be happy.. We'll both get what we want right? "

　　I leaned to touch my forehead with hers,  caressing her nape with my fingertips softly. 

　　"What if that isn't what I want and all I've ever wanted was your all of you... I mean everything ... for you to need me as badly as I need you,  for me not to have to force you to stay.... That what I deeply crave the most is your love,  will you give that to me then?   ....we'll both get what we want , will you still help me then? " I couldn't suppress the turbulent emotions growing deep inside of me even as I felt her whole body tensed against me.