Psycho - Headless Horsemen MC novel Chapter 18

- Jax -

I kick the large wooden doors open to the clubhouse, I really do love making an entrance. Everyone's eyes fall on Harley and I, the loud talking and singing now coming to a complete stop. Knuckles voice booms over the crowd, I follow the noise to find him standing on top of one of the tables with a drink in hand.

"Ladies and gentleman, I present to you the woman that has managed to whip our 'Killer' here into place, the one the only" he looks at Harley staring down at her before he smirks while raising his glass in the air.

"The infamous Harley Rose Blackwell".

His voice roars and the place erupts in cheers and clapping, wait how do they know who she is? Let alone her middle and last name? I look over to Harley whose body is tense, anger swarms to her face as she walks away from my side stomping up to Knuckles', this can't be good.

I catch up with her when she stops dead in front of Knuckles, her fingers twitching, on one hand, the other hand is making it's way up to her pocket knife, I look to Knuckles' who's still smiling like an idiot before getting down from the table, now face to face with Harley.

She swiftly pulls the blade out and pushes it against his throat, her face now completely stone-cold, her once bright eyes now dark. "How do you know my name?" He chuckles as she pushes the blade harder into his neck, I grab her wrist and bend down to her ear, "Don't do it, Harley, trust me hes not a threat I promise" she slightly moves her hand so there's not as much pressure on Knuckles neck.

"I'll ask one more time, how do you know my fucking name? And don't try any dumb shit either I'll have your skin sliced like a damn jigsaw puzzle before Jax can even blink", Knuckles laughs again and raises his hands in the air in defeat.

"Mexican cartel really loves you, little girl, you sure as hell left an everlasting impression with them. They still talk about you, you should really go and see them soon, it's been awhile" what the hell is he talking about? I turn my attention back to Harley and give her a knowing look, she lowers the pocket knife and returns it to her waistband before turning her attention back to Knuckles.

"How do you know Lil ol Ricci?" She smirks waiting for Knuckles answer, "He really lets you call him that? Ha! He's just as much whipped as Killer. Ricardo and I have been in trades for while, we send explosives to them they send guns to us. A very good friend of mine, last time I went down there he couldn't stop talking about you, how you kicked all of his men's asses. If I remember correctly, the deadliest person he has met so far. They all miss you, Harley, you should really go and see them soon".

What the fuck is going on? I bend down to her ear and whisper in it, "You have a lot of explaining to do later" I grab her ass and give it a hard squeeze before turning my attention back to Knuckles. "Yeah I miss them too, I will have to go down and see them again. I can't believe they still think about me, I thought they would have forgotten, everyone else seems to do so".

Knuckles shakes his head before speaking, "You're family Harley, weather you like it or not, you're a part of their family, and if you're apart of their family you're apart of ours too, especially now that you have whipped Killer over here into place" they both laugh before a moment of silence I keep my eye on Harley, she looks a little unsure about everything.

I take her hand into mine and give it a squeeze, a few more seconds of silence she speaks again, "How did you know it was me tho? It could have been anyone" she raises an eyebrow before looking between Knuckles and I.

I shake my head "No I didn't tell him anything kitten" she looks back at Knuckles, "Ricardo told me about some of your.. let's say.. hobbies? And when you ran your bike into the truck I thought to myself, who would be pyscho enough to do that yet still live to tell the tale? Call it a hunch" he says with a wink, he pulls her in for a hug, she takes a few seconds to return the hug to him, he pats his hand on her back a few times before letting go, "Welcome to the family Harley" she thanks him before he excuses himself to go and find his old lady.

There's a party on but I'm not in the mood for it, I need to know what the fucks going on with my girl. I take her hand in mine and pull her into the spare bedroom we are staying in. I move her through the door before locking it behind us, "And what do you think youre doing?" She raises her eyebrow at me and smirks slightly.

I drag her to the bed and sit her down on it, I squat down infront of her and roll up the bottom of her shirt showing the cuts on her legs, she looks away from me once she notices what I'm doing. "Look at me kitten" my voice stern and a little cold, she keeps her eyes away from me no paying attention. "I said look at me kitten, don't make me ask you again you won't like the punishment".

She slowly turns her head to face me, her eyes becoming glassy. I swallow hard before talking "Why?" She sighs before looking down at her fingers on her lap, "It keeps them quiet" she says softly, "Keep who quiet kitten? Talk to me" she sniffs before speaking "The voices... in my head, they crave blood, the smell of it, the feeling of it. I wasn't in a position to find someone to shut them up so I did it to myself to feed their needs for now. But they always come back, louder and stronger and angrier" she trails off while speaking "God I probably sound like an idiot".

I hold her face in mine and make her focus on me, "You don't sound like an idiot Harley, I know what you're talking about, I have them too, so does Gunner, I don't want you to hurt yourself kitten. You mean so damn much to me, I can't see you hurt like this. Please, let me help you" my thumb runs across her cheek as a single tear rolls down.

I look over the table and can't help but smile at the sight of it, everyone getting along, all happy, one big family. I look at Harley and smile, even more, my beautiful kitten finally looks happy.

I don't know how many hours we have been sitting here talking shit and telling stories for but almost everyone's gone to bed or passed out, it's now Harley and I with a few older members and their old ladies.

Harley gets off of my lap and takes my joint out of my mouth, bringing it hers taking a hit from it before putting it out, "Come dance with me Jax" holding out her hands to me, "Nuh-huh kitten I don't dance" she pouts her bottom lip our and puts on her puppy dog eyes. I groan loudly and get out of my seat taking her hand in mine, anything to make her happy.

I pull her to the middle of the room and place my hands on the top of her ass, she puts her hands around my neck as the music lightly plays in the background, Black Velvet by Alannah Myles begins to play as she lets out a squeal, "Ooohhh I love this song!".

She sways her hips to the music, I pull her into me tightly wanting to feel her body move against me, she quietly sings along to the song and I'm in shock at her voice, it's beautiful, mesmerizing, I could listen to it for the rest of my life and never get sick of it, she sounds like a fucking angel.

"I love you Harley" my voice snaps her out of her own little world, she looks up to me with her big blue eyes as they widen with surprise, she looks confused as well, so fucking adorable. She goes to speak but I hold my finger to her lips, "You don't have to say anything, I don't expect you too. But I need you to know it, the thought of losing you with you knowing exactly how I feel drives a pain through my heart, I really do love you Harley" she stops dancing still looking up at my face trying to read if I'm being serious or not, deadly serious kitten.

She moves her hand to my cheek and I lean my head into her touch, it still blows my mind how much power this woman has over me, but that's how I know I really do love her, how I know she's the one for me.

"I love you too, Jax".