Psycho - Headless Horsemen MC novel Chapter 15

- Harley -

"Can I go for a ride tomorrow?" I smile and place my hands into Jax's, I love how big his hands are they mine look tiny. "I'm going to be busy tomorrow, so I'm not sure" I frown when he says it, but I'm also glad it won't be him, he's the last person I want to hurt in all of this, "Why can't I take someone else?" I question him trying to not act suspicious if he catches on I won't be able to protect them.. from myself.

"Because I don't trust anyone else" He growls while saying it and I laugh, I love how overprotective he is as if anyone going to hurt me besides myself. "You really think I won't be able to protect myself?" I smirk and raise an eyebrow at him, "Fine who do you want to take?" He asks I stay quiet for a few seconds, who do I want to take?

That I won't mind hurting and then the name comes into my mind and I smile at the thought, paybacks a bitch, "Gunner" I say with a smile, he looks a little confused by my answer, as far as hes concerned I'm about ready to kill Gunner and wear his skin as a coat, mostly true but It won't be tomorrow. "Gunner?" He asks as if he thinks he heard me wrong the first time.

"Yep," I say as I smile at him, "Harley youre not taking Gunner" he shakes his head and lets go of my hands "Why not?" I frown and cross my arms over my chest like a damn child. "Because I'm afraid you kill him" I laugh when I hear him admit it, I shake my head before answering "I pinky promise I won't kill him" He holds his pinky out to me "Pinky promise you won't kill my best friend" I wrap my pinky finger around his and tighten it, "I pinky promise".

I place my head onto his chest and listen to his heartbeat as I let myself start to fall asleep, I need as much rest as I can get before tomorrow morning. His fingers run through my hair, as I instantly relax to his touch. I feel a stab of pain in my heart thinking about tomorrow, I don't want to leave but I need to, I'm a monster, he must have been lying when he said I wasn't one. I know I am a monster and nobody wants a monster in their life. I can't hurt him, he's better off without me, everyone is.

I wake up after tossing and turning all night and look over at the clock and groan when i see the time, 5:15 am, good enough. I slide out of Jax's tight grip around my body and get in the shower quickly washing myself as quietly as I can. I get dressed and throw my shit in a bag including one of Jax's shirts I can't help myself.

I walk over and look at Jax sleeping peacefully on the bed, he looks at peace, I don't think I've ever seen him this calm before, I brush my fingers over his face moving the hair that had fallen over his skin during the night and leave a soft kiss on his cheek careful not to wake him up, I turn around and write a note on some paper.

"What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas" I place my phone next to it before making my way downstairs. I walk down to the main room and see Gunner and Shelby sitting at a table drinking coffee, I march over and Gunners eyes nearly pop out of his head when he sees me, "Get your shit together we ride in 5" He goes to protest but I look him dead in the eyes, "Jax knows get on your fucking bike, Gunner" He nods and kisses Shelby on her cheek before making his way out the wooden doors.

I go to turn around but I feel a small hand on my wrist, I turn around to Shelby who looks extremely worried. "I'm not going to kill him Shelbs, he will be back soon, I promise" I go to walk away again but her hand doesn't leave my wrist.

"Will you be back too?", She knows when I'm lying to her but I don't want to tell anyone anything, I need to leave. All I do is bring darkness to everyone who surrounds me, like an angel of death, "I'll see you later Shelbs" giving her a soft smile, I shake her hand off of my wrist before giving her a quick hug, making my way outside to see Gunner already on his bike.

"Where are we going?" I say nothing and get on my bike starting it up before pulling out of the compound. After riding for a short amount of time we pull up to the house the Shelby and I were moving into before the lockdown. We both get off our bikes as I make my way over to the door unlocking it, Gunner close behind.

I notice a few bikes riding towards me, wearing leather cuts just like the Headless Horsemen. I'm guessing another MC, around 20 bikes ride past me a few nodding as they ride along. At the back of the group, there's a large truck about 800 hundred meters behind them, I'm guessing it has drugs or weapons on board, I drift my bike onto the opposite side of the road, gaining speed rapidly.

I have no control over myself my mind goes blank, and my body goes numb. My demons screaming faster, faster, faster Harley. I ride faster than I have ever before, ignoring the noises of cars and trucks honking as they drive past me trying to get my attention before it's too late, but guess what? It is too late. I push the bike harder, I take my blade out of my pocket and swiftly cut my break line.

I smile when I know my brakes have been cut and there's no stopping me now, I keep speeding up pushing the bike as hard as I can, quickly the truck approaches me closer and closer and closer.

The driver starts honking trying to get my attention little does he know hes had my full attention from the start. All noise suddenly doesn't exist, the only thing I hear is my own heartbeat. I smile and hold my arms out to my side closing my eyes just seconds before impact.

I love you, Jax.