not his first mate now novel Chapter 30

The darkness stayed with me as I walked around like a blind man, finally a small light shines a head so I run towards it, but it starts to move away. I growl in frustration as I push my body ahead faster in the hopes to catch the light, again it moves just out of my reach.

"Why are you moving?" I scream out into the darkness know to well I wasn't going to get an answer.

"Where am i? and why the hell am I her" I scream once more.

Finally the light starts to come closer only to appear as a glass ball, this made me glare at it. I move closer and see an image pop into the ball. I gasp as I see my son on a bed crying his little heart out as he holds tightly to something, I couldn't see what it was he held onto.

The image changed to Xander pacing a room with blue walls and a frustrated look on his face. His fist was clenched at his side's, I frown as I watch him throw a lamp at the wall mumbling to himself.

the next image shows my parents, my mother was balling her eyes out while my father held her tightly in his arms. He had no emotion on his face as he stared at something across from him.

"What's wrong with them all? Why can't I hear them ?" once again I scream out to the darkness and receive no reply. I was confused on where I was, had I died? is this what's goin' on? Suddenly the light disappeared on me and I was once again in complete darkness.

I sat down and closed my eyes mumbling to myself.

"Please take me back, I want my baby, take me back I want my baby." I repeated it over and over.

The sounds around me started off slowly like a buzz and then it turned into unfocused mumbling, finally I could hear a little voice beside me.

"Mummy please wake up." I tried to move my left arm but pain instantly shot through it, I tried to move my right arm but got the same reaction. I was getting annoyed, all I wanted was to comfort my baby.

"Xaiden sweetheart come get some lunch." I hear my mother's voice softly say.

" Will you stay with her Nana?" my little boy begs, I wanted to scream out that I was okay, I needed to hold him close and kiss his little face.

"Of course I will, you go down with grandpa and eat."I felt him move away, I tried to move again so I could stop him but I still couldn't move my limbs, I herd the door close.

"Hey baby girl, I wish you would wake up, your baby boy needs you." I could hear her sob as she grabs my hand, I wanted so badly to cry with her and tell her it's okay. She grabs my hand and places it on her cheek, I try again to open my eyes but pain just radiates throughout my head I hiss in pain but no words where heard

(Fucking crap, move you stupid body, open your eyes.) I groan to myself.

"So Xaiden should be shifting hopefully tomorrow night." was she serious, had I already missed that much time and now his turning six and meeting his wolf for the first time. I wasn't sure how to comprehend those words.

"Your dad should be bringing coffee up soon." I realised she was just talking to keep her mind busy.

"Your dad thinks he will shift soon which means his father will be recognised. I wish you would wake up lil we all need you, even my brother." I was surprised he was mentioning his brother and more surprised he was talking to me, last time we spoke we where in a fight.

He soon left the room and another took his spot.

"Why Lilliana?" Dontae says harshly, I frown in my head wondering what he was talking about.

(Why what?) I wanted to ask.

"You should have stayed in your area not go wondering around." his anger is heard as he growls out.

"I almost lost you, I will not loose you to death or anyone. You are mine my little mate." His words sent a shiver down my spine. I feel him kiss my hand then both cheeks, my forehead, nose, eye lids and then finally my lips. He made me want to pull him close and have my wicked way with him. I groan at the feel of his touch upon my body. He pulls away to soon for my liking and leaves the room, Damn that man will send me crazy one day.

I laid there for hours just feeling the cool air hit my body, the castle was extra quiet so I figured it was now dark. But strangely enough something just didn't feel right, I managed to move my fingers and toes. My wolf paced in my head, we both where on edge for some reason. A whimper was coming from the hall way. I new instantly it was my baby boy. My wolf took the pain as my eyes shot open, I didn't take in my surroundings, instead I shot up out of bed biting my lip from the pain as I ran out of the room and down the hall. I followed my son's scent which leads me to outside in the garden.

His little scream made me run faster, I see my parents and Dontae's parents standing around him in a circle, I growl out in warning as I drop by my son's side and pull him into my arms.

"Shh baby mama has got you."I tell him softly, people start to come closer but I growl out at them to not move. I feel them take a step back from us, whole I held my son close to my chest to ease his pain.