These disparities between someone like Alicia and me made me lose more and more of myself.
I started becoming unreasonable. I checked his phone and restricted him from interacting with other women, even if they were just his colleagues or subordinates.
I knew that those women were innocent, but I had already been facing emotional issues by then and was unable to control myself.
All those sweet memories of the past we shared had vanished like smoke, leaving only our constant squabbles and the various recollections of me being unable to fit into his social circle.
I remembered that our last argument happened when he told me that he didn’t want any children.
I had asked him then, “What if I’m already pregnant?”
If I were pregnant, would he be able to set Alicia aside?
Jonathan had looked at me with extreme disappointment back then. “Do you think having a child is a tool for you to use in fighting for my favor? Then I hope you never manage to conceive, and even if you do, go for an abortion.”
I felt extreme despair in the face of such heartless words.
At that time, everyone within the social circle of the wealthy was saying that even if the Zimmer family went bankrupt, Jonathan would be there to help them. I pleaded for him not to go, but he‘
did so anyway.
The twofold blow was too much for me to bear, so I threatened to commit suicide if he went.
I had threatened the same thing many times before when I was being emotional, but I had never
once meant it.
Jonathan tolerated me the first two times, but he stopped taking me seriously by the third time
and simply left.
Later, I would commit suicide, only to be rescued and partially lose my memories after awakening.
Tears streamed down my cheeks as I went over all this in my head.
It was no wonder I wanted to forget… It was no wonder I couldn’t remember a thing, because it turned out that those memories were so terribly painful.
I trembled from head to toe, to the point that even Jonathan noticed something was wrong with
I replied, “You truly disgust me, Jonathan Ford.”
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