My Unforgivable Mate novel Chapter 75

"Nadia, I've made mistakes, horrible mistakes, and I'm now living with the consequences. I regret it, I really do, and I'm so sorry." His words bring back the full ache in my chest.

"I know...but this time, it's different." I try getting my words together before speaking again. "When you kissed me, I was so mad at myself for wanting you and I was mad at you because you knew I wanted you and used that against me.

"But then I realized that, I don't regret us but I just wouldn't do it again. I won't put myself through the same pain Malic, I know better. With that being said," I look up at him. "I Nadiana Azzi, reject you Saint Malic Salvadore, as my mate."

A pang to my left chest starts to beat to its own heart beat. It's out, there's no going back. "You just have to accept it-"

"Accept it!" I watch the orbs of his eyes fill up. "Rejection?! You want me to accept this?!" He stands turning away form me. "I know I hurt you but please! Please Nadia, anything but this."

"It's better this way-"

"Have you lost your mind?!" His tone shut me up for a second. "Are you listening to yourself? It's not fucking better this way!" I push myself up standing and he turns to me, trials of tears run down his face. "This isn't what you want."

"Of course I don't want to reject you!" I too his volume. "But I need this! We keep going in circles-"

"Just give me a chance!" He moves to me, I have never seen him so torn and it had be glued to my spot. "Let me prove that I can be better then this!"

"You should already be better! You told me yourself that I deserve better!"

"I can't take back the past, but I-I can fight for us!" He sniffs.

"There isn't an us to fight for anymore!" My heart burns for him yet I have no more tears left to cry. "I can forgive you Malic, I swear I can but I don't want to take you back!"

"Please Nadiana, please," his voice shakes as moves to me and I'm stepping back hold out a hand to stop him if ever he gets too close. "Not like this,"

"Son." I turn to the stern voice to see both fathers, how long have they been there for?

"I'll be better," Malic hasn't taken his eyes off me, I shake my head, "tell me what I need to do, I'll do it in a heartbeat."

"Why did it have to come to this? Why do I have to reject you for you to be this determined? You're the one that got too comfortable."

I sit in my fathers car as he starts his engine. "Can you take me to Tomas'?"

"I think rest is what you need after that." We start moving.

"Please," I'm being careful to keep my gaze out my window.

"Nadia, another boy breaking your heart isn't what you need." I let out a shaky breath. "It doesn't take a genius to see the way Tomas looks at you, the same way Malic looked at you throughout dinner." I know dad!

"You seem to have this bad habit of making decisions and then telling me last minute exactly what is going on, so this time, all I ask of you is that you think. Think long and hard, think with your heart then your head."

I know. I have so damn much to think through. I literally just rejected my mate and feel nothing of the pain I used to feel, I don't know whether that's a good or a bad thing. Have I gone numb?

I spot Tomas' neighbourhood and I look over at my father just as he pull up in front of Tomas' place. "Don't move too fast." He nods to me.

"Thank you!" I get out and make my way down his path, I ring the bell before knocking. Ever since our almost date a week again we haven't really made any time for just us, together, alone. The door swings open and there he stands.