My Secret, My Bully, My Mates. novel Chapter 290

Chapter 0290

I just blush and look at her, I have nor response to that at all.

Just watching her interact with all of the people we have come into contact with has been educational, but there really isn't a way to tell people ‘I’ve never even held a boy's hand before’ that isn’t embarrassing.

“Since we're on the subject, what is your favorite position"

She tilts her head and has this mischievous smile on her face like she was reading my mind and wants me to admit it out loud.

“Umm.” I play with my fingers. I don’t want to lie to her and end up in a position where I would have to prove anything, but I really don't want to tell her the truth either.

“Come on. You don't strike me as the sleep around type.

It's okay if your experience is minimal, there's nothing wrong with slowly easing into the s*x stuff.” She moves to sit by me on the bed.

“Umm...1 don't have one.” I look anywhere but at her and hope that she just reads between the lines and drops the topic. I can feel my face heating up. There isn't a lot that makes me blush, but this is one of those things that does I guess.

“So you're a virgin, that’s fine. I was until last year, but I decided that I wanted to know a few things before I found

“Uh, no. We are just friends and all of that is show for the stupid girls who can’t take a hint that he doesn't want them throwing themselves at him." I roll my eyes. “The twins have held my hands and they all kiss me on the head, but I'm like everyone's little sister, nothing more.” I shrug.

Now that she’s talking about it, I feel like I should be practicing somehow so I'm not a disappointment to my mate when I find him. I don't want to be rejected because I can't please him. But I also don't want to be rejected because I didn’t save myself for him. I drop my head into my hands.

“This is so confusing. What am I supposed to do? The thought of being with anyone that’s not my mate makes me sick to my stomach, but what if he doesn’t want me because I don't have any idea what I'm doing” I let out a little whiny noise.

“Or what if he doesn’t want me because I have done anything that wasn't with him? I don't want to be rejected!” I can feel my panic start to rise, my chest is tightening and my breathing is getting quicker.