"And I'm carrying twins," I said. "I don't know if the child we lost before has come back to us, but I hope so."
I continued, "When I found out I was pregnant, I actually considered getting an abortion because I didn't want to have anything to do with you anymore.
"But then, I remembered our innocent first child and how painful it was to lose him. And that's when I decided to keep this pregnancy. I really hope our child has come back, that he chose to be reborn as my child again.
"You know how I vowed to love my child because my parents never loved me. I want to be a mother who loves her children the most. Don't you also want to be the same kind of father? If you do, then hurry and wake up!" I urged.
As if it were a promise, I added, "I don't know what the future holds for us, but I can guarantee that you're the father of my children. It'll be up to you how you want to be part of their lives.
"When we got married, didn't you say you wanted a daughter who looked just like me someday? Just imagine. What if we have identical twin daughters? Wouldn't that be amazing?
"Of course, a boy who's as good-looking as you would be wonderful too! The genetic trait for fraternal twins runs in my family, so there's a good chance our twins will be a boy and a girl."
At this, I paused for a moment before continuing, "Regardless of what our twins' genders are, to me, it all sounds absolutely wonderful.
"Don't you want to see such a beautiful future with your own eyes? To meet the daughter you've long awaited? To take care of her as a baby, watch her grow up, and then protect her for the rest of her life?"
I said a lot to Irvin, vividly painting a wonderful future. It was so beautiful that even as I spoke, I couldn't help but yearn for it. I also couldn't help but smile like a doting aunt.
But no matter how beautiful a picture I painted, none of the monitors attached to Irvin showed the slightest change. Irvin, who had been lying there motionlessly, showed no response either.
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