Inexperienced novel Chapter 34

"Quel?" (What?!) Zach asks.

"I'm not Winter. My name is Lilith," I answer. Now it's his turn to get up and pace and my turn to sit down.

"So you telling me that you lied?" He asks in English and I can't help but smile at how cute the words sound in his little accent. "Don't smile at time like this!" He scolds.

"Sorry, and yes I lied, but let me explain." I tell him.

"Y-you lied to me entire time," he looks at me tears in his eyes.

"I-I'm sorry but I had to, if I didn't then..." my own tears fall down my face. "I was scared that he would find me." I whisper.

"Who?" Zach asks.

"Marquis," I answer.

"Explain," Zach sighs and he sits across from me, his eyes looking into mine. "Et je saurai si vous mentez... Cette heure" (And I'll know if you're lying...This time) He tells me. Nodding, I start from the beginning.

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"Wow," Zach says when I finish and I nod. I have started pacing unable to sit still while telling him my story as he intently listened.

"I know," I sigh. "Now I have to find somewhere else to go."

"Why, it's obvious you love him." Zach says and I stop and look at him as if he's the most craziest person on earth.

"Me love him? No, and I told you, I don't know what came over me, it was just...A kiss," I tell him and continue pacing but even I know what just came out of my mouth was a lie.

"It sounds to me like...les choses sont devenus réelles, tu as eu peur, et tu es parti. Ça arrive." (things got to real, you grew scared, and you left. It happens.) He says.

"What do you mean?"

"Zach w-what I f-felt was real. I would never lie about something like that," I tell him through sobs.

"Yes but...Je nai pas suffi." (I wasn't enough) he whispers brokenly and he said it so quietly I almost didn't hear him.

"Zach I-I'm sorry," I whisper and I once again go to reach for him and it surprises me when he pulls me into a hug.

"Est-il triste que jespère toujours que vous séjournez ici ... Avec moi?" (Is it sad that I still hope you stay here...with me? ) He asks me and I sob harder,

"Non" (No) I tell him. "Une partie de moi a aussi commencé à tomber amoureuse de toi aussi" (A part of me has also started falling for you as well).

"Pourtant, nous ne sommes pas censés lêtre. Peut-être dans une autre vie, mais pas maintenant." (Yet we're not meant to be. Maybe in another life but not now.) He sniffles and I know he's right. It's time for me to accept that even though a part of me has fallen for Zach, most of my love would always belong to Marquis. I was just scared, so scared that I shoved the feelings down and to the back of my mind, hoping that soon I could forget about them but I couldn't which was why I couldn't no matter how hard I tried, be with Cargo and why even though I feel a connection and some of my heart belongs to Zach, I cant stay here with him.

There is a reason to go back.