I will never be yours novel Chapter 53

Selena pov

The moment I step out of my room I already regret saying some of the harsh words I said. I don't want a mate but I am grateful he saved me!

I can't tell him that though, it would mean I have to let a wall down and admit it and there is nothing good coming out of that.

We are better off without each other and I just have to find a way to break the bond. There has to be a way without killing him if the bond is broken.

Making my way down the stairs and over to the kitchen I'm trying to sort my thoughts. I hear my bedroom door open and his heavy steps coming down the stairs.

Reaching the kitchen I find Emma stirring in a pot on the stove and she immediately rushes over to me and wraps me up in her arms.

"I'm so sorry Selena! I forced Kian to mark you, we couldn't lose you, it's all my fault! Don't be angry at him" She says and my stomach drops at her words.

So now he didn't even want to save me! Just did it because Emma forced him to. Well, it's just getting better by the minute. I hear Kian behind me in the kitchen but don't want to look at him.

"Here I have made you a potion to keep you from going into heat!" She says and releases me before walking over to the stove. She gives me the bottle and I look at it, the thought hasn't crossed my mind yet but there is no way I want to go into heat! I take it in one go and swallow the potion, feeling the liquid running down my throat I try to calm down.

Going into heat is the last thing I need right now!

Placing the bottle down when I feel his presence behind me but I ignore him.

A mindlink opens up and it comes from Jessie!

Telling everyone to stay inside. That can only mean one thing and I turn around and rush out of the kitchen without saying anything when I mindlink back and wonder where she is.

Kian is right after me and when she tells me they are on the south side I rush in their direction.

I know Jessie has it all under control but I need to know what has happened these hours I have been out.

Turning around a corner I see her standing with Zoey and Jacob by the barrier, Kian's men are there beside them and when I reach where they stand Jessie turns around and wraps me up in her arms.

"I'm so sorry I didn't protect you better," she says and my heart goes out to her. Holding her tighter to me I'm blessed to have them all by my side.

"You did everything you could and I know you are a reason I'm still here," I say before releasing her and Zoey comes up to hug me from behind.

"You also Zoey!' I say to her while looking out of the barrier.

" Now tell me what's going on!" I say to them.

"We got rid of the bodies but there wasn't enough time to have every trace erased, we have seen at least a dozen rogues running around after!" Jessie says when I see a rogue in the tree line.

"Are everyone inside and where are they coming from?" I ask them.

"Five of our best scouts are outside, they have reported most of the rogues came from the king's land!" Zoey says when there is a furious growl behind me. I already know who it is and roll my eyes at him.

I feel his presence before his hand comes and swirls me around.

Coming to stare right into his angry eyes.

"Yes, I have!" She says and looks at me.

"Have you told him about your daughter and what happened!" I see her start to fiddle with her apron.

"No just that I have had a child since before! He took it well" She answers and I sigh, she already blame herself for not seeing the vision before it was too late. I can't do this to her!

"Alright! Give it to them" I say and walk ahead to grab my mug and take the potion in one go before throwing it in the trash bin.

My men follow behind and take their potion and get out in the hallway while they wait. Kian and his men walk over and Emma hands them their mugs, when her mate comes forward I see her blush when he hooks a finger under her jaw and tilts her head up to look at him.

He places a kiss on her cheek before he lets her go and takes a step back.

I just smile at the sight. When she turns around and looks at me I wiggle my eyebrows at her and she rolls her eyes in response.

On my way out of the kitchen I stop and turn to Emma, Kian is right behind me.

"I need you to find a way for us to break the bond without having anyone of us killed!" I say when I hear a low growl and Kian grabs my arm and forces me around to face him. His eyes look intense at me when his hand comes up and grabs the hair on the back of my head, tilting my head up before he leans his face closer to mine.

"I won't let you!" He says and his breath is fanning my face, anger is radiating out of him.

"I thought it would make you happy since you didn't even want to save me, to begin with! Just did it because Emma forced you." I spit at him and look at him with the same anger.