I will never be yours novel Chapter 139

Selena pov

Closing the door I walk over to the bed and start to take my clothes on, pulling the shirt over my head before grabbing my pants and trying to get them to be comfortable over my stomach but they feel too tight.

I have to place them under my growing belly, I will have to buy myself new ones.

Taking the towel I walk over to the bathroom and hang it up before getting back to the bed and starting up my computer, there are some emails I have to go over when there is a knock on the door.

Seeing the door slightly open I hear Emma's voice.

"can I come in?" she asks and wait for me to answer, when did she ever wait for me to invite her in? She always just walks right inside!

"yes, you can come in!" I say when she pushes the door open and walks inside. Looking at her she gets right over to the bed and takes a seat on the other side.

"what are you doing?" she asks when I'm in the middle of answering a mail.

"I'm working!" I say and continue to look at the screen, she moves closer to the middle of the bed and looks at the laptop.

"Have you gone back to your work?" she says and I have to stop answering the email, can't focus on both things.

" I quit my job and started my own business, have started to take only a few clients until I have it all up and running properly. Couldn't go back there after everything that happened, only need to go there one day and get my belongings!" I tell her and try to get back to my response on the mail.

She places her hand on mine and stops me from continuing.

" you have done what?" she says and I turn my head to look at her.

"I need a job to be able and provide for me and the children beside the pack, this job I know better than anything else, and why not work for myself instead!" I say when she turns her head and looks at me.

"you're telling me you are coming back to the pack as the alpha?" she says and I can see a glimmer of hope in her eyes.

" he didn't take the pack from me or stripped me from being an Alpha, he took over the lead as of now and I believe it's for the best at the moment. I have to focus on myself and my children for the threat that is out there and make sure to be prepared. Once it's over I will come back and need to have the finance in order!" I tell her when she gives me a big smile before she wraps her arms around my shoulders.

"I thought you had given up on the pack! You have no idea how happy you are making me!" she says to my shoulder, leaning my head at hers I have missed her these weeks.

"does Kian know about this?" she asks after a little while.

"he doesn't know a thing, today is the first time he spoke to me in all these weeks!" I say and lift my head to get back to what I was doing.

"you know he said he would provide the pack with everything we need! I believe he attends to do it" she says when I look up from the screen.

"After everything that happened I don't want to rely on anyone else, I need to have full control of everything that's going on around me and I will not run a pack with the good grace of someone else!" I say to her and mean every word.

This lesson has thought me that I have to have control over every little thing and a plan for how to make it work.

"Alright!" I say when she gives me a smile before she turns around and walks out of the room she closes the door after her and I take another hour and go through my work before closing my laptop and putting it away.

I have to go to the toilet again and my pants aren't doing it better for me when they place another pressure against my bladder.

Heading over to the bathroom I take off my pants when I'm on the toilette, it will be better without them and maybe I can wait until tomorrow morning before I need to go again.

Washing up I take my pants with me and walk back out to the room, making sure to lock the door properly before getting in bed.

I'm exhausted and I'm not sure my head had hit the pillow before I already was asleep.

Wake up early in the morning from the bed dipping behind me and I instantly try to sit up and find what's going on when his arm wraps around me.

"calm down it's just me!" I hear his voice before his face comes down to my shoulder when I hear him take a large inhale.

"I have missed you!" he says and presses his lips to my shoulder, I have to close my eyes when he stirs up feelings in my body from his touch.

He places kisses up my neck and small tingles play under his touch when he places one arm under my head and pulls me back flat against him.

"let me just hold you for a couple of hours!" he says next to my ear when I take a deep breath and let his scent fill up my lungs and I instantly get calm, his warm body being pressed against mine when his arm comes around my chest and hold me tight. I want to say something when he places his nose on my neck.

"Sleep love! I'll be here when you wake up again!"