I am getting tired. I know that I want to fight them and defeat the devil's pack, but I also want to live. I want to enjoy my life, especially the life that's growing inside of me. As I began to walk back to the cabin to help the ladies prepare dinner. I hear the laughter of children as I look over. I see 3 little girls playing so full of life. Smiles on their faces living the life that is given to them.
I realized that this is the reason why I can't give up I need to fight for them, so they will have a future that will not be torture but has happiness. I feel that this is my responsibility to make sure we all can live and not have to fight so damn hard.
As I am getting closer one of the little girls runs over to me ''Hi Alpha do you want to play with us."
Knowing I have so much to do but god a break from my life would be amazing "Hello sweetheart that sounds wonderful what are you playing."
She runs up to and tags my leg "tag your it." She says as she is running away, giggling.
My heart fills up with so much love just in this moment as I chase these 3 little girls around. I tagged them and threw them up in the air and listened to their giggles, enjoying being with them.
As I watch an older woman who approaches me, unsure who she is but knowing she is in my pack by feeling her loyalty to my pack. She goes to bow. I look at her and smile, "that is unnecessary."
She smiles at me "that is out of respect, my alpha. You look like you're really enjoying yourself."
"Actually, I really am. I'm having a lot of fun. I'm really not sure of the last time that I have had this much fun."
"These children are all orphans because of what the devil's pack has done to their families."
My smile of happiness quickly fades once I find out the truth. I am so heartbroken for these kids that their parents have been wrongfully murdered. It's unfair what the devil's pack has done to so many.
"So are you their parent."
"Yes, I am their aunt. I was too late to save my sister, but I was able to save her girls. I was able to get them out before they were captured."
I then think to myself that most of the women who are captured are not killed, they are turned into slaves. They are forced to do unthinkable things, and they probably wish that they would have killed them. I don't tell her this, I don't want to give her false hope that her sister could be alive. Knowing that her sister probably will never be the person she was before.
"I'm so sorry that has happened, I'm hoping that we will be able to make them pay for all the wrong that they have done."
I'm annoyed. I want to smack her, but I prevent myself from reacting to the tone that she has just spoken in. It is so disrespectful. To be honest, it should not be tolerated if you do not speak to an alpha in that tone. I try to stay calm as I feel like smoke is coming out of my ears.
"Sandra, I am not sure what your problem is, but I am going to be Blunt you do not speak to your Alpha this way again, do you understand?"
Tears begin to form in her eyes "I'm so sorry alpha things have just been so stressful I did not mean to disrespect you I know that I am a smart ass things have just been hard."
I look at her and try to show some kind of compassion. I care about the people who are in my pack. I want to be there for them if they are broken. I want to help fix them. "Sandra, if you need to talk about something I'm here. I know that I am busy, but I can try to make time to talk if you can't talk to me. Talk to my Beta. His name is Damian. We will try to help you if that is what you need."
Out of nowhere she runs over to me and gives me a hug. I am surprised by the tightness of her hands wrapping around my body. I can feel the emotion that she is feeling. I am starting to realize the toll that this is causing on everybody wondering what we could do to help all of us.
Tiffany comes over "OK guys, let's get this food served from what I remember, we have training tonight."
"Yes, let's serve out the dishes, so we can get done and start training that will help burn some steam.'
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