I Am The Luna (Moonlight Muse) novel Chapter 103

25. A Broken Heart ZAIA. or I Am The Luna Chapter 103 By Moonlight Muse

Please say this is a lie…

His words through the phone echo in my mind, making everything else fade away. “Zaia!” Annette’s distant shout echoes in my mind as I fall to my knees, broken.

Sebastian left me.

Tears stream down my cheeks as I clutch my chest. The pain I feel is far worse than anything I have felt in my life. Far more excruciating than when he rejected me years ago.

It hurts so much… my heartbeat is ringing in my ear, along with the shrill whistling sound that makes my head want to explode.

I cannot breathe.

Sebastian…

“Why!” I scream as I stare ahead, unseeing.

Flashes of our moments together flood my mind but all I can focus on is him. The signs were there, the way he was behaving… how long had he been planning to do this?

I thought we were a team. I told him I needed him. Why?

Will I never just be enough to keep him happy? Sobs wrack my body and I feel like I’ve lost everything. The threads of my life had begun to come undone, yet I still held on… still hoped for something more.

Mom… Dad… Sebastian…

In the end, I failed. Just the way I am failing Sia and my people…

Why is the goddess doing this to us?

“You chose the wrong one! Why?!” I scream. “If you really cared… if you’re really out there… why would you do this?” My voice breaks as I hug myself. I feel so alone… I am alone…

I was the wrong person for this. I’ve tried… tried to do my best, but I’m not doing enough…

Why did you make us for one another if your only aim was to rip us apart and crush my strength? Despite everything, he gave me the strength to continue. Why did I allow myself to fall for him again? Why did I unwrap my damaged heart for him?

He was my strength… he was the one who I had learned to forgive and not only did I fall for him again; I fell for him all over again.

I don’t want to feel this pain…

I clamp my hands over my mouth, rocking myself as I try to pull myself together, but I can’t. He’s destroyed me… Destroyed the trust I had in him. Sobbing, I clutch at my aching heart, hurting so badly.

“Red…” Strong arms wrap around me, pulling me against a firm chest. “He left me… again,” I whisper, a fresh wave of tears running down my cheeks. “I can’t tired…” cope anymore. I’m tired, I’m so

“It’s going to be ok. We’re going to figure this out…”

How?

So many times I felt like he was saying goodbye…

Last night… he was saying goodbye, wasn’t he?

Mom… she’s gone too.

Dad…

I grip my head as it squeezes in pain. My claws are out and my eyes blaze with my emotions.

“Zaia! Zaia, look at me!”

Someone forces my head to the right, and I think it’s Atticus, but it’s becoming dark. “Sebastian, I want to talk to him. He needs to know that there are other options.” I plead through my tears. One last try… because I didn’t give Mom a chance…

‘SEBASTIAN! If you can hear me, please please listen!’

I’m met with nothing but a wall and I cry out in desperation.

“Zaia…” Atticus’s voice fades away as my vision begins to spin and then, everything becomes blissfully dark…

Night has fallen and I’m sitting on my bed, exhausted yet unable to sleep, in pain yet unable to feel it. Betrayed, yet unable to comprehend it.

How do I recover?

I hate showing the kids how I feel, but today I was unable to hold my tears back as I hugged and kissed my babies, breaking into tears.

They are my strength; they are the only strength I need, but how do I tell them their dad has left them once again?

In the darkness of my bedroom, despite being alone, my thoughts don’t relent. Self-doubt, self-blame, guilt, sorrow, pain, betrayal…

And despite the storm within me, the only thing I know is, I failed. Failed everyone and everything…

Sebastian is truly gone.

Mom is dead.

“He is one of them. He might.” I reply emotionlessly. “Let’s think about this tomorrow,” Jai says, and I can feel his eyes on me.

“The wicked don’t rest… so neither will we,” I reply quietly.

My heart may feel dead, but somehow… Somehow there’s that tiny flame inside of me that refuses to die out….

“Prepare to combine the Crystal Shadow Pack and the Dark Hollow Falls Pack. With Dad missing, I am the next in line… I know he’s alive because I haven’t felt a power shift.” I say.

“What about your brother? Can there be a chance that he could be the next in line-”

“No, Dad and I have already completed the ritual that would make me his heir. He is alive. I don’t know where, but I will find him.” I say firmly, now looking up.

My heart is heavy, broken, and in pain. But the world won’t stop for me. “Zaia are you sure you’re, ok?” Atticus asks, concerned.

“No, it would be a lie to say I am, will be,” I say quietly. but I I know I’ll have moments where I’ll break, but there are still those who need me… need my protection.

“Just take it easy for a bit,” Atticus says and I shake my head. “No, I need to organise Mom’s funeral and there’s a lot more that needs doing,” I reply.

“That’s my girl,” Valerie says with a gentle smile. “We are at war as I said… and I’m presuming they want me to fall…” I look out at the moon once more. There is a lot that must be done and the first thing I will do tomorrow is find the Moon Dust.

“You are a force to be reckoned with.” Jai whistles with a small smile. But I don’t have the heart to return it. ” Even the strongest of forces shatter… and I am far from the strongest… but I will not let them break me…”

“You are incredible, Zaia. You got this.” Valerie says, taking my hand and giving it a gentle squeeze.

“Mm… the first thing we need to do is work on the mind link,” I say, now looking at all three of them. “Let’s show them that the Sublime are fighters.

“Yes, let’s do it!” Jai says.

Their spirits are lifted, and I realise as long as I show them that I am fine, that it gives everyone else hope…. For them, I must keep fighting even if I’m dying inside.

Where did I fail, Bastien? Where did I lack that I lost you once again?

Because I did love you, with everything I had…

I just wish you talked to me…

But I wasn’t important enough… 12