Forbidden novel Chapter 12

When I woke up the next day, my eyes were swollen and sore and so it my lower region as I got up from the floor.

I just realised that I fell asleep crying on the floor in a towel and now I have cold. But that wasn’t the painful bit but the painful stabbing pain in my heart.

With each step I wince as I made my way towards my closet but not forgetting to sneeze.

I settled with a comfy black sportswear.

I tied my hair in a high ponytail and hesitantly open my door checking if Travis was still there but as predicted he wasn’t.

Why did I suddenly felt disappointed?

I knew that this would happen, what did I expect?

Even though I knew that this would happen the pain in my heart never stopped and only became more painful.

I made my way downstairs only to engulf by the delicious smell of fried bacon and pan cakes.

I quickly made my way downstairs but only end up wincing, damn it, my lower region wasn’t really making it easier for me to walk.

As I finally reached the kitchen I was caught by surprise.

It was no other than Travis placing plates filled with bacon and pan cakes on the table, I didn’t really want to face him right now so I was planning on just avoiding him when unluckily he got to me first.

“Morning Kitten, I made breakfast” he happily said as if nothing happened.

“I… I think I’ll pass, I’m not really that hungry…” I attempted to make an excuse but Travis wasn’t planning on losing any time soon.

“If you’re planning on avoiding me because of last night you have nothing to be worried of,” he said almost pleadingly so I hesitantly made my way to the kitchen contemplating if this is the right choice.

Since I was hungry as hell I just went with it and started eating while trying to avoid any conversation with Travis who was staring intently at me the whole time.

I quickly finish my food and washed my plate before saying thank you as I quickly escape from him.

It’s currently Saturday and tomorrow is when mom will come back; tomorrow is also the day when my feelings for Travis will officially become forbidden.

I let out a sigh and head outside to buy some medicine for colds and it happens that on my way I bumped into Aiden once again.

“Mare!” he exclaimed as if surprised to see me again, I smiled at him but to only add a sneeze.

“You ok?” he asked and I just nodded.

“Just a common cold” I said as we made our way inside the shop.

“Ah… their horrible aren’t they,” he said and I just nodded looking for the medicine.

After I got what I wanted I paid for everything I bought and so did he and we both made our way back to my house.

I guess I’m starting to warm to him even though it is something I can never do. “Well you should go” I said and he nodded his head to me before smiling.

“Yeah… um… so are you free tomorrow?” he shyly asked when suddenly a certain someone answered for me.

“No” a familiar voice I knew far too well.

I whipped my head at Travis and glared at him. “Sorry no” I said.

Aiden just gave me a sad smile after he waved goodbye as he jogged off.

I ignored Travis but it seems like he didn’t like that but too bad he better get used to it.

“Hey” he said before grabbing my arm.

I started feeling dizzy but ignored it as I ignore him.

“I thought we’ve talked about this” I told him and he stayed silent for a moment.

“Look Travis we need to stop, I need you to stop, mom and Andy are getting married tomorrow and there’s only few days left till end of school and we won’t have to see each other so you better get used to it. I suggest you let me go now—” before I can finish my sentence Travis smashed his lips against mine and easily I gave him entrance before pushing him away with everything I got.

I glared at him before running to my room. God!

Why does he have to make this so hard!?

I didn’t know how long I have been sleeping until I felt someone stroking my hair.

I opened my eyes and blinked for a few times until I saw no other than Travis stroking my hair in a very loving way that made my heart skips a beat.

I quickly got up and pushed him away.

“Travis why are you here?” I asked and he just smiled at me. “Leave… LEAVE!” I scream at him.

“Fine but this doesn’t mean I’m giving up” he said before sending me a sad smile as he made his way out of my room.

I let out a sigh as I buried my face on my hands.

Why is it so difficult trying to avoid something you can’t?!

I made my way downstairs before the landline started ringing; I went to answer while wondering who it could be.

“Hello?” I said and there was nervous shuffling on the other side.

“Uh… Mare…?” the voice I knew far too well said, I was about to slam the phone down when she desperately begged for me to listen.

“Mare wait—please listen, just for a few seconds and I’ll stop calling you” she desperately said and I was hesitating.

“I already left what more could you want?!” I asked, I was quite surprise at how my voice sounded strong.

“I just want to say sorry—” I cut her off knowing that she’ll just say the same empty words that I never want to hear from her.

“If you’re calling just to say sorry then you’re forgiven, now stop calling me, I already left, just stop it… stop bothering…please” I said and there was a long silence.

“I know what I did was unforgivable and I know that a simple sorry is never enough, please don’t forgive me easily… please hate me…”

“Why?” I asked her with so much venom in my words. “Don’t want to feel guilty?” “Mare…”

“Stop calling, it’s been done… stop bothering me…j-just stop…” in the end my voice finally cracked and tears has already been spilled.

“I… I’m sorry… don’t worry this is the last time, just promise me one thing… promise me that you’ll continue hating me… because that way I can easily leave…” she said as she tries to muffle her cries but I knew her far too well.

Why does she want me to hate her even though she knows how hard it is for me to hate others?

Especially her, we were best friends for god sake! We were practically sisters!

Not by blood but she has always been there for me and vice versa but she got what the crowd made her do.

This is for the best.

Although I have to call Ethan to tell him that I’m coming, probably later…

After a few hours the flight finally ended as I made it out of the airport and used the local public telephone to call Ethan to come and pick me up.

Although he was surprised he knew that I have been planning for this for a while now.

After waiting for 10 minutes I found Ethan hurriedly searching for me. I yelled after him while waving at him to tell him where I was.

He looked at my direction and smiled.

As he runs towards me he immediately engulfed me into a bear crushing hug. “I miss you so much Mare” he said and I replied with a “me too.”

He led us towards his car and drove off to somewhere that I don’t really care. I’m just glad that I’m out of there.

“So why the big rush?” he asked

“Mom’s getting married tomorrow and Travis…” I couldn’t finish my sentence as tears find their way back to my eyes.

“No need to tell me anymore if you don’t want to…” he said but I feel like I need to let it all out.

“He confessed to me and I had to reject him since we can’t be in a relationship, it was too much… after you left I tried to cope and make you friends but I wasn’t able to apart from Aiden.” I said as I take a deep breath.

“Ouch… so you found a new guy friend?” he asked with mocking hurt.

I laughed at him and I was glad that Ethan can calm my heart with his jokes.

“Yeah… although it was only for a few days…” I said, “I was doing well from ignoring Travis but she called… I was so scared on how she found me… I wanted to call you and mom but I didn’t want to worry you…”

“There, there…” Ethan said as he soothingly pat my hair.

“Andy caught me and Travis but I told him that nothing happened and it will end there, everything became too much when he said he loves me and in addition she called.” I said as I feel my hand shaking.

“Have you told your mom?” he asked and I shook my head.

“Her surprise wedding is tomorrow and I don’t want to worry her,” I told him and he just nodded.

“Also she promised that she won’t bother me anymore…” I told Ethan and he nodded.

Ethan, mom and I are the only people who knew about what happened back then.

The reason why mom and I moved, the reason why I couldn’t trust anyone… Ethan was the only one who managed to make me let my guard down.

I was scared first about him knowing but he stayed with me despite the dark past I hold.

Even so I still had it hard.

It was really difficult to pretend that I was okay despite the fact that I’m broken.

“I think it’s time you actually forgive her instead of pretending you forgive her,” he said and that just made me angry.

“Easy for you to say because it wasn’t you!” I snapped at him but soon regretted it knowing that he has also been hurt.

“Ethan… I’m so sorry” I said but he just remained quiet.