Denied by Destiny Trapped in the Shadows of the Mate Bond novel Chapter 271

~ Josie ~

I hate the pack runs, more because I can’t join in. It’s the only time I am reminded that I am not

like them.

They can’t help it, they are following the gut instinct of their very being. Why should they change centuries of tradition just for one person. They shouldn’t and as much as I try, I try to not hold it against them.

But no matter how much I try, it still hurts. The pain still claws at my chest of not being enough, of not being complete.

This cabin in the meadows was my go to place during pack runs. They aren’t meant to come out

to this part of the pack grounds, but I am not allowed to shoot…just in case I hit a wolf.

Orders from the Alpha, Dad. In here, I am tucked away. Not a dirty little secret, but more…kept out of harm’s way and vice versa.

Lobo is with me as I chase him around the cabin, music blearing out as I try to work off the

frustration that was building within me.

I was always frustrated during the pack runs, but this time it felt more intense…what happened in the storage cupboard, or almost happened, tortured my mind for the rest of the day.

I change the music to the sound of calming, relaxation tones as I take a deep breath in. Letting

my body relax.

I roll my head from side to side…trying to find that inner peace. Something I haven’t found since our guest arrived. He had a way of making me feel unbalanced, not in control…almost…anxious.

Closing my eyes I try to clear any thoughts but all I get are flashbacks of him climbing off his bike earlier…how I wanted to go to him. An unexplainable pull to him that I wanted to give into. I’ve never experienced that sensation before.

I hear Lobo moving around the cabin, sniffing at the skirting boards until he stops at the door…and starts to growl in warning. For the most part, Lobo was an extremely friendly dog…but mainly only with

against protocol but I was vulnerable, the rest of the pack in the other direction and me alone with

Lobo, the gun was my only line of defence.

Clicking the safety off, I aim the gun for the door, moving around Lobo and taking a step towards it. My trusted companion bends his head down, his back arching and his claws pawing on the wooden floor as he prepares to leap…fuck…my adrenaline was pumping through my heart.

My heart felt as if it would break free of my chest.

I didn’t scare easily, but he was right…someone was outside.

“Who’s there?” I demand, trying to hide the tremor in my voice. This is what I was trained for, this is what I am prepared for…but when it actually happens…

The door slowly creaks open, and I take a step back, my gun rising at the intruder. Holding my

breath I prepare to pull the trigger back, just breathe Josie…just imagine they are a target board.