Chapter 130
–SLOANE–
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The last time I saw my mother, she was aiming a loaded gun at me.
It had been one of those nights you don’t forget, no matter how much time passes or how many good days stack themselves on top of it.
Now, I’m seeing her again. She’s lying still on a bed, palms resting one over the other on her stomach. Her eyes are on the ceiling. Her face is drained, like she’s been crying for hours and somehow still has more tears left to shed.
I stand in the doorway for longer than I should, my hand pressed to the frame. I don’t know what to do. Don’t know if I should walk in, touch her, speak, or sit beside her.
She’s so still that I almost wonder if she’s alive.
A wave of guilt hits me. Can’t tell why. It’s not like I was the one who caused this. But I wonder… if that day hadn’t gone so badly or if I’d reached out after it did, offered an olive branch instead of silence, would she still be pregnant? Would the stress have been less, the pressure bearable?
It’s a long reach, I know. Anything else could’ve caused the miscarriage. But I can’t shake the nagging possibility that maybe… maybe I’m part of the reason.
I inhale before speaking.
“Mom.”
I gather my courage and step forward. My knees feel like they’re trying to fold under me, but I ignore it. I reach the side of the bed and lower myself gently onto the edge, leaving just enough space between us that I don’t touch her. I was going to place a hand on hers, but something in her stillness tells me not to.
“It’s going to be alright,” I say, though I don’t know if I believe it. The next words are out of my mouth before I can stop them. “Should I call someone? Maybe your husband.”
Her eyes don’t move, but her mouth does. “I don’t want to see him.”
“I know, but-”
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“I loved that man so much. So, so much. The funny thing is, I always hated the idea of giving kids their parents‘ names, but the second I found out I was pregnant, I knew. I wanted one of them to be called Jaden. No shortening it like he does no ‘Jade’- so it wouldn’t get awkward. But… I loved him. And he slept with my daughter. I should’ve known it was a bad idea to marry someone younger.”
I swallow hard. This isn’t going as planned. “He was scared, you know. I’m not saying you should accept him back, but he’s the right person to be processing this loss with.”
“I don’t want to see him, Sloane.”
I nod slowly. “Fine. How about Serena? She can take you home and be with you—‘
She turns, her eyes finally meeting mine. “Are you doing this on purpose?”
“Doing what?”
“Making me focus my emotions on something else. Like anger. First you mention Jade. Now your sister?”
“What she did was stupid, I know.”
“Stupid?” Her voice spikes. “That’s the word you chose? How about self–centered? Deceitful? Bitchy? She came to my house and smiled at me while she
was sleeping with my husband. If I lay my eyes on her, I’m going to kill her.”
She sits up with effort, wincing as her body adjusts, hand drifting to her belly that’s still slightly distended, a soft reminder of what was once growing there. The sight of her like this makes me want to retreat and move forward at the same time. I don’t know what to do with her pain. I don’t even know what to do with mine.
She’s not going to be able to stay here. That much is clear. This house isn’t safe for her–not because of physical threats, but because of everything else. My father
wife, Daphne, is due back next week. And if she walks in to find the ex–wife camped out here, just after being accused of cheating–God.
I glance at the time on my phone. The bodyguards are still waiting outside. Knox would be thinking I’m on my way to his club. I’m supposed to be laying low, staying out of sight. And here I am, knee–deep in family mess.
She can’t come with me. And I can’t take her back to her place–not with a target still on my
There’s only one other option, and I don’t care if she doesn’t like it. back.
“I’m going to call Serena, Mom,” I say, rising from the bed. “She’ll come pick you up and take you home. Whatever issues you have between yourselves, I’m sure you can work it out.”
“You must be out of your mind.”
I’m not. I’m the only one thinking straight here. You called Dad? Dad? He has a wife who doesn’t know you’re here. What do you think she’s going to do when she sees you?”
She stiffens. Her eyes retreat to a corner of the room.
“He was the only one I could call,” she says.
“That’s not true. You could’ve called me.”
“You only care about your boyfriend, Sloane. Nobody else matters to you right now. Why should I call you?”
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