Baby I'm A Sinner novel Chapter 41

"Touché."

"Seriously, I have a brother at home, I really good at comebacks."

"Doesn't your brother live in a dorm?" Emma asked.

"No. He loves having my parents kiss his ass on a daily basis; he's never going to be out of the house. And they call me lazy."

The rest of the boys finally came to us with the room keys so we started walking towards the entrance of the dance hall.

Luke intertwined our fingers as we walked down the stairs, wiggling his eyebrows at me as he told me that we had our own room. I knew what he meant by that and it annoyed me. Lately it seemed like he was with me just for one reason: sex.

Right at the bottom of the stairs was a beautiful arch decorated with fairy lights and snowflakes, and on each side of the staircase was a white Christmas tree. The round tables were scattered on the sides of the giant room, and there was stage right in the back where the DJ was standing.

Our table was in the far left corner. A lot of people exclaimed and greeted Noah as we walked towards it, and all I could do was roll my eyes. Why did everyone here think he was some kind of God?

I placed my clutch on the table and my blazer on the back of my seat, between Luke and Emma.

"We got chicken in the menu yaaas!" Jake exclaimed and I laughed. I could go for some chicken, since I hadn't eaten in more than twenty-four hours.

I grabbed a glass of champagne from the entrance after that, and then I asked Emma to take a photo of me with it.

A new song started and Luke asked me if I wanted to dance, so I said yes.

We danced for about five songs, but I couldn't help notice that Lucas and Harry were having an argument at our table while Eleanor was dancing with Carly.

Harry pushed Lucas, who looked lost, before he marched away, leaving Harry alone.

"You okay?" Luke asked me when he saw that I wanted to walk away.

"Yeah I just-I need to go check on a friend, be right back okay?"

"Sure."

I kissed him on the cheek and then quickly walked in the direction that Lucas had just left. I went up the stairs just in time to see him exit on through a back door that led behind the hotel.

I opened the door after he closed it, and saw him leaning against the wall, opposite to the stairs, looking for something in the pocket of his blazer. It was snowing, wow.

"You okay?" I asked him and he looked up as he pulled a cigarette out of his Marlboro pack.

He shrugged and I sat down on the steps, face-to-face with him.

"Saw you having a fight with Harry."

"Oh...yeah. Well."

He lit up his cigarette.

"Want one?" he asked and held out the pack to me.

"Um, sure."

I took a cigarette before he lit it up for me, and then put everything back into his blazer.

"So what was it all about?" I asked and he sighed, sliding down the wall so he could sit on the ground.

"He told me that he slept with Jake."

"I know."

"And that he wants to be with him."

"Wow."

"And I know I don't have any right to get mad since I'm also in a relationship and Harry and I were never official but...I don't know what to do. I can't choose between him and Eleanor."

"So you actually do love her."

"Yeah. But I also love Harry. That's my problem. I can't fucking pick one."

I bit my lip before I took another drag from the cigarette.

"Which one did you fall in love first?"

"Why does it matter?"

"Just tell me."

"Harry."

I smiled. "Then pick Eleanor."

"Why? How-"

"If you really loved Harry, you wouldn't have fallen for Eleanor."

"But it's just-Harry gets me you know? Like, he's my soulmate. I don't think I can give up on him."

"Depends. Is it working?"

I snorted. "I don't know. It's weird. You're like my brother."

"Oh yeah?"

I nodded and he smiled, eyes crinkling, before he leaned in to press his lips against mine. It took me by surprise but I continued it just for the sake of it.

He cupped my face with the hand that wasn't holding the cigarette and I wrapped my arm around his neck to bring him closer. I couldn't believe that I was actually properly snogging Lucas. It meant nothing, I felt nothing.

Our tongues were in a really heated lock so when he finally pulled away there was a trail of saliva left behind that I wiped away.

"How was that?" he asked, smirking.

"Eh."

"Don't pretend like you didn't like it."

"Felt like snogging my brother."

"You've snogged your brother before? Do tell more."

"Ew, stop."

He laughed and took a drag from his cigarette.

"Does what we just did count as cheating?"

"Did you feel anything?"

"No."

"Then that's your answer. And I'm offended by that. Not even a small tingle in your vagi-"

"Lucas stop!" I laughed and pushed at his shoulder.

"Sorry babe. I guess I overestimated my kissing skills." He said sadly, but I knew he was just pretending to be offended.

"Shut up." I laughed and actually pulled his face back to mine so we could kiss again. His mouth was hot and I was angry at Luke so sue me.

We kissed for a while after that, until we heard someone coughing behind us, which made us pull away quickly.

It was Noah, who was smirking with a cigarette pack and a lighter in his hand.