Alpha alec's redemption (Sadie) novel Chapter 321

I hear him leave. The soft sound of his footsteps fading down the hall feels like a knife twisting deeper into my chest.

My back is pressed against the door, knees shaking, trying to hold myself together but the moment the silence stretches too long, I shatter.

My legs give out, and I slide down the door until I hit the floor with a dull thud. The tears come fast and endless, blurring everything until I can’t see anything anymore.

The image won’t leave my mind. Lola jumping into Alec’s arms. Her hands gripping him. Her lips pressing against his… And he just stood there.

Even now, my mind keeps replaying it over and over, like a cruel, endless loop. Every time I try to breathe, the memory crushes my chest tighter, making it feel like I’m drowning over and over again.

Goddess, why? Why did you have to play this cruel joke on me? Why now, just when I thought things were starting to fall into place? When I was just starting to trust, to believe again.

I thought I’d healed. I thought I was stronger now, that my heart had finally stopped bleeding. But tonight proves I was wrong. The wound never closed; it just hid under the surface, waiting for the right moment to rip open again.

And it has. It’s been ripped open in the cruelest of ways and now I’m bleeding all over again.

I press a trembling hand against my chest as if I can hold the pieces together, but it’s useless. I can’t stop the ache. I can’t stop the tears. I can’t stop the hollow, tearing pain that's destroying me from the inside out. It’s crushing me, cutting me, killing me.

“Nyx,” I whisper brokenly, closing my eyes. “Please… please talk to me.”

I get nothing but silence. No voice. No comforting presence. Nothing. It’s like screaming into a void that echoes nothing back at you.

My stomach twists, panic bubbling up as I reach out again, harder this time. “Nyx!”

But she’s gone. The emptiness in my head answers me louder than any words ever could, and that all but drives the dagger deeper.

A sob claws its way out of my throat, and I’m barely able to contain it. The only one who could understand me, who could help me through this pain, is gone.

I’m completely and painfully alone in all this and I don't know what to do.

I hate this feeling. I hate how familiar it is. I hate that no matter how much I try to move forward, life keeps dragging me back to this same place. Broken, crying, and humiliated.

How could I be so stupid?

I should have known better. I should have trusted my instincts when they warned me not to fall for him again. But I didn’t. I let my heart drown in his promises, in his eyes, and in his voice that always made me believe he meant it when he said he wanted me.

I let him in. I gave him another chance. I fell and he broke me again… and this time feels even worse because he toyed with my feelings.

“Stupid,” I whisper to myself, tears still streaming down my face. “I’m so fucking stupid.”

My body trembles as I drag myself off the floor, wiping my cheeks with shaking hands even as the tears keep falling anyway. They won’t stop no matter how much I wipe them.

I can’t stay here while his scent still lingers around me. While his voice and words keep playing in my head. It burns.

I reach for the mindlink, forcing my voice to steady. “Martha?”

Her response comes instantly. “Yes, Sadie?”

My chest fucking aches, but I push through it. “Can Aspen sleep with you tonight?”

“Of course. Is everything alright?”

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