A Surrogate For Billionaire novel Chapter 5

I woke up and looked around. I was still in the hospital. I sighed and got up from the bed. My body was weak but I should go to Noah now. I'll take my money and pay it for Noah's surgery. I was still wearing a hospital gown and I saw clothes on the table and I knew it was for me. I quickly changed into the clothes and went out of the ward. Then I met aunty Jade.

"Here is your money and leave here. Don't come back again and as the contract rules you will never see the baby and his full custody will belong to his father." My heart shattered into pieces. How am I supposed to let go? He's my son and I gave birth to him. His father didn't even come to see.

"Can..I see him for one last time? Please. I gave birth to him. I'm his mother" I spoke through my broken voice. I'm not ready to let go. I carried him for nine months and he grew up with me, not with his father.

"You can't go against the contract. You already signed it. Don't make old madam angry" Those guys are rich and I knew I won't be able to win against him. So without arguing I took the money and left.

"Take care of your health Julianna. Good luck" I heard aunty jade was talking to me but I didn't turn around to see her. I was just broken. They are just so heartless and didn't even let me see my baby for one last time. I forced my tears back and went to Noah's hospital. Finally, I'm going to see my little brother. I smiled happily because I'm going to save Noah and he will be happy.

I went to the hospital. I walked through the corridor and I met doctor Peterson. I smiled at him but he didn't smile, he just nodded at me and left. What the hell? But I saw guilt on his face. Why was that? Suddenly my heart became restless. Did something happen to Noah? No.. With that, I ran into his hospital ward quickly. As I entered his ward, Noah wasn't there. Fear took over me as I looked at his bed. Where is he? I asked myself and then the nurse came into the room.

"Where is Noah? Did he go to a check-up?" I asked her but her face had the same look as doctor Peterson. Why?

"Where is he? What happened to him?" I couldn't hold my tears back. I asked as I took her hands.

"Noah..He passed away yesterday" What? What did she just say? Passed away? No.. she's lying...

"You.. You're lying, right? Tell me where is he? I took money for his surgery" I said. I didn't believe her words and I won't believe them. Maybe Noah is playing with other kids.

"Julianna... I'm sorry.. I know it's very hard to believe but he's gone. It happened yesterday at 10 in the morning. We called you but you didn't answer. I'm sorry" Yesterday? At 10? I.. I was in the hospital and giving birth to my baby. How.. How did this happen? My heart was suffocating and I couldn't breathe. I clutched my dress tightly. What is this? After everything?

"I..I'm so sorry darling" I said while hugging his pillow. His milky scent is still here with his things. I closed my eyes and recalled his smile. It was the smile that encouraged me every time I was about to fall. That smile gave life to my baby but now everything is gone. I failed him. I failed him as a sister. It was all my fault and

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At least I couldn't even see him. I'm not ready.. I'm not ready yet to read his notebook. I wasn't there for him. I wasn't there to share his pain. I wasn't there to listen to his last words. What kind of a sister am I? I hate myself and not protecting Noah. Why? Now how am I supposed to live without him? He was my life. I did everything for him but he's already gone. I just can't go through this pain anymore. I lost my parents, Noah, and also my baby. Why am I just useless? Why don't I just die? I can't live with memories. Noah waited for the whole damn nine months but he lost every hope. I was late... I was just late. I wasn't ready to let him go. I wasn't.. I want him. He's my only brother and the only family that I have.... It hurts and I can't believe it. He's gone..... He was waiting for me but I just couldn't be there for him. Guilty is killing me... I want to die.... With those hurtful memories and thoughts, I fell asleep finally.

I woke up after a few hours and it's already evening. I went into the bathroom and showered and changed into a set of black clothes. Then I went to the hospital. I saw my little brother laying in a coffin lifelessly. There are no words or actions in the world to describe the pain in my heart. I was just a useless sister for him. I saw the little kids that my brother used to play with crying and it broke my heart even more.

After the funeral was done, I looked up at the dark sky which was about to rain. My brother's untimely death is something that I will never be able to forget. I wanted to die so I slowly walked towards the sea. I wanted to kill myself and join with Noah but when I was about to jump I remembered something. My son. I will return the money to them and take him with me. With that, I went home and grabbed the money that they paid me and left the house. I went straight to the mansion that I lived in for nine months. As I entered through the gate I saw a car parked in and all doors were open. I went straight into the house and saw an old woman holding my baby. Suddenly, she looked at me and her eyes grew dark.