A Girl Adopted By Wolves (Three book set) novel Chapter 128

As Zeno dragged me to the pack’s houses, I jerked my hand out of his, taking advantage of his distraction. He looked at me shocked. Did he expect me to do whatever he wants?

“What happened?” He asked bewildered.

“Nothing much. Just your highness holding my hand without permission.” I sneered.

“Why can’t I hold your hand?”

He looked at me like he was doing some complex calculations for a space ship.

“Oh let me think.” I started rubbing my jaw like I was thinking really hard. “You, my bully, is holding my hand like we are friends. Isn’t that a dream come true? Why wouldn’t I want the person who made my life a living hell, act like everything is just peachy? I mean that will exempt me from further torture. I do have to be careful now or I would fall into a fall pretense and you would probably try to hurt me again. Can’t be more careful these days, can we now?”

The sarcasm dripping from my tone was so sharp that Zeno flinched at every word I said. I gave him my best smile in return. He looked… ashamed? Now that’s something new on him.

“Look I am sorry for what I did to you all these years.” I raised my eyebrows at him. “It’s just… you had so much control over my emotions to the point that I absolutely hated it. You made me feel different but you never gave me even a look. You didn’t even know what you were doing to me. Now I know that you were in some sort of distress but my seven year old mind thought that you had an attitude and weren’t giving me any attention. I thought that you didn’t even knew that I existed. I wanted to make you look at me. Know about me. Be aware of my presence but you never even looked in my general direction.”

He glared at me like it was my fault that I didn’t know he existed at that time. I had just lost my family. What did he expect me to do? Go on play dates with him. I didn’t even had met him before I moved in with mom and dad.

“I thought you were full of yourself so I did what I thought was right at the time. I made you a social pariah so you will only pay attention to me but you still didn’t even make an effort for it. Then I started bullying you and I got what I had wanted all that time.”

He was twisting his fingers madly. He looked agitated.

“I had decided that year that I would distance myself from you and start anew but you still wiggled your way in my life and you were totally unaware of it. Again. So I dumped my plan of leaving you alone and started hurting you anytime I could. Being near you made it easier to cope with the darkness that was spreading inside me. Hell even being in the same building made it easier to breath freely. So I came down harder on you. I couldn’t let any chance to get pass me to be near you. How could I? The feeling without you being there was horrible and I loathed it even more. There were times I wanted to talk to you nicely but all that would come out of my mouth would be something horrible that would be bad enough to make you unhappy. That had unfortunately become a bad habit of mine. I tried so hard to make you see me. I knew you hated me but I couldn’t stop. I tried even harder BUT YOU STILL IGNORED ME LIKE I AM SOME UGLY CENTIPEDE.”

I flinched as he screamed pulling his hair in frustration. I had a very strong urge to laugh as a centipede with Zeno’s head danced in front of my eyes but I controlled myself.

He got to his feet and closed the distance between us in two strides. If I say that I am scared, it would be a major understatement. He fingers caressed my cheeks softly but not even the sparks made it easier to not want to run for the hills. I shouldn’t have come here with him. Why did I have to come here alone with him?