“... You need to tell me where she is,” I demanded, stepping back towards him again. “Tell me where she is right now or I swear I will burn every fucking bridge to get that information out of you. I don‘t care what it costs.”
“Aria... I don‘t–”
“No!” I cut off, grabbing his shirt in my fists and pushing him back up against the door once more. “No, you don‘t get to tell me you don‘t know. I smell her on you, Cai. Tell me where the fuck she is right now!”
He mustered up enough strength to push me back, but I didn‘t release my grip on his shirt.
“Aria! I don‘t know where she is. She comes and goes a lot since I‘ve mostly been in bed these days,” he explained. “And she has family. Not in a pack but–” |
“A human family,” I finished for him. “Yeah, it‘s the same bullshit line she fed everyone here when she turned up after killing Myra. You‘re all morons for believing her. I assume you didn‘t even bother to ask her about it.”
He just pushed me again in reply, confirming my thoughts, and I finally relinquished my grip, but not for his sake.
Without looking at him, I then quickly walked over to the cabinet and threw across the room whatever ornament had been sitting on top of it, needing to physically vent my anger somehow.
“I don‘t understand any of this. How can it feel like she‘s my mate but she‘s not? I mean... it always felt a bit... weak, but the signs were all there. Whenever I look at her, it‘s like something inside tells me she is m y mate. How can you fake something like that?”
“Who the fuck knows, Cai? Why don‘t you ask her next time you‘re both sitting down together for dinner?”
“Stop blaming me, Aria!” he then growled back. “I never knew what she looked like! When she was living in the Winter Mist, I was living in your goddamn cells, remember?”
“Oh, shut up, Cai!” I snapped back, finally losing the last shred of restraint. “You don‘t get to play the victim here. In fact, I‘m done. I‘m so done with all of this. Of you... of Aleric. Somehow both of you have found your way into her bed no matter what I do! Is this why Selene actually brought me back? Entertainment to see how long it takes before I completely lose it?! Because I‘m there. I‘m there, Selene!” 1
‘What if he‘s lying and he knew it was Thea the whole time, the voice inside finally piped up. ‘What if he knew and is in league with her? What if he just wants you to think he isn‘t on her side so you‘ll open up
and let him steer you in the wrong direction?‘
“Aria! Get it together! I can help you find her but you need to calm down,” he said, taking a step towards m
- e.
...It was just as my other self had cautioned me about.
And so I quickly took a step back, now doubting even his presence here.
“No... no you stay the hell away from me,” I warned, my hand resting on the dagger by my hip. “I want you off my territory immediately. I don‘t even care if you talk to Tobias or not anymore. In fact, don‘t. I dare you. Don‘t join back into the alliance and I *promise you* I will wipe your pack off the map again, just like! did in the last timeline. This meeting was only a courtesy... for you.” ?
“Aria! Wait––”
“No! I said I‘m done.”
“Aria–”
“Get the fuck out of my office, Cai!” I finally screamed, my eyes ablaze.
He just stared at me, his eyes glazing for a split second under my order, before breaking early,
It seemed my Saintess authority wouldn‘t work on him.
Not to say I was aiming to order him like that but it did open up an interesting revelation I hadn‘t expected.
If I had to take a guess why, it would probably have something to do with him also possessing attributes o f the Goddess. Perhaps it was the same for Aleric too. Maybe this was always the way things were going o end up. That there was no outcome where I could have commanded Aleric or Tytus to stand down given their lineage.
“You don‘t need to order me,” he growled, finding his composure. “I‘ll leave myself.”
And, with that, he finally walked out, leaving behind the solitude I had so badly craved.
In fact, now in the empty office, the only thing that filled the silence was the sound of my breathing, threatening to turn into sobs at any second.
But I couldn‘t give in to that.
No, not today.
We‘d made a promise on my birthday to never shed tears for anyone again.
If Cai was working with Thea, then so be it. We‘d get to her somehow now we had a link.
More so than that though, I just couldn‘t believe that all of these months had passed and she‘d literally been across the border in Cai‘s bed the entire time. Given how easily girls seem to fall into his lap, .. perhaps I should have checked there first.
But all of this boiled down to Selene. Because she had sent me back with no information on the powers–at –be that extended far beyond the normal I knew of. It was as if she had wanted me to fail, setting me upt o lose when the enemy clearly wasn‘t ordinary.
No, Selene had sat back and watched me slowly die during my first life.
...And now she was watching it happen again, only this time with more variables.
Did the first death bore her too much?
Did she just need a bit more spice for the second time around?
Well fine.
I‘d bring it to her
Since she liked watching so much, I‘d give her a front–row seat.
And with that, I stormed out of my office, out of the packhouse, and into the forest behind it.
The forest I used to go running in. The forest where I‘d apparently forgotten something very important.
A distant memory from another life, almost completely overlooked now, yet had somehow retained nonetheless. Perhaps Selene had intentionally tried to make it that way.
Because I could recall now the day I‘d come running through here to clear my head, the day Aleric had told me Thea was pregnant.
...And I‘d seen a woman.
A woman in a white dress with golden hair who had seemingly made it over the border without patrols seeing her.
Who had no scent or presence and magically disappeared into thin air when I‘d approached.
Chapter Eighty–Three
Who I discovered merely weeks later resembled the Goddess herself, only once I’d met with her in the Abyss.
Because she might have claimed that she couldn‘t involve herself in our affairs, but it didn‘t stop her from watching us anyway. After living for so long, what else was there for a Goddess to do?
Well, whatever the reason, I was well and truly done. Done with her neglect, her omissions, her ability to send me back without even a shred of information as to what was happening or what I needed to fix. I was done with this life.
If she really needed me to change our fate so badly, then she could prove it. No, she could tell me herself.
“Come out!” I screamed into the forest. “I know you‘re watching me!”
The sky was already darkening as the afternoon was turning into night, and I knew the conditions were almost the same as that day I‘d first seen her.
“Selene! Show yourself!”
But only silence followed.
“Fine then,” I hissed and pulled out my dagger. “Either come out, or I swear to you that I‘ll make the decision for both of us right now, Selene!”
And I held the dagger up to my throat, threatening to move it at any second.
“You think I won‘t do it?!” I yelled when she still hadn‘t appeared. “You think I give a shit about saving anyone anymore? Everyone who loved me either lied or is dead. I have nothing left Selene, no one worth saving. So fuck your laws. If you really need me so badly then you can show yourself or...”
I pressed the silver into my flesh more, waiting for when she would stop me.
...And yet, still, no one appeared.
Did I get it wrong?
... Did I not matter as much as I thought?
It seemed she really was committed to calling my bluff. Maybe once I was gone she would just send someone else back to try and stop Thea. Maybe it never mattered if I agreed or not because she would have chosen another poor soul if I‘d declined being sent back.
...But could I really do this? I‘d come out here to demand answers on the assumption she needed me more than I needed her, that she couldn‘t take the risk of me ending it. If she really wouldn‘t appear... could I go through with it? Was I actually at my limit?
‘It would be a fitting end, the voice inside said. ‘To have lived and lost everything in both lives is no small thing to endure. But surely the Abyss would be better than this hell? Maybe this doesn‘t need to be a bluff after all....
I wasn‘t sure if those words were comforting or not.
“...Alright, then,” I whispered after a few minutes had passed with no result. “Have it your way. I‘ll see you o In the other side, Selene....”
And with that, I took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and prepared myself mentally for what I was actually considering....
It couldn‘t be that hard, right? There would be no Aleric, no Cai, no Thea, no wars, no packs, no heartaches or loss. A sanctuary away from all of that was just waiting for me on the other side. If the Abyss could show me my worst memories then perhaps, one day, it could also show me my best. Maybe, i
wapagay intee
fI was lucky. I could see my parents and Myra again. Maybe I could finally be at peace....
And so my grip tightened on the blade, my heart now racing.
Just a quick movement would be enough and...—
“–Stop,” a voice then came from the forest. And my eyes flew back open to see who had spoken.
Chapter Eighty Four
Chapter Eighty–Four
The second I saw her standing there, I quickly collapsed to my knees, my grip releasing from the dagger immediately.
I‘d been merely a second away from doing it. From ending it. From finally letting go.
And yet I was still alive.
I gasped at the air around me, my body shaking from adrenaline as it pulsed through me.
It had started as just a bluff... but somehow I‘d found myself almost going through with it.
...Had I really fallen to that point?
“No,” I immediately barked back. “I told you already. You‘re going to give me the answers you owe me... or we‘re done. You can find someone else to do this. I‘m not participating in your rigged game anymore.”
She took another few moments to think further on my request, her silence so eerily unnerving, and, as every second ticked by, my own anxiety grew. This was my last hope. My only chance of getting the answers I needed. If she refused to intervene then I would remain lost in the dark.
It was therefore with her help and influence that many years later her family finally ascended to become the Great Circle of Gods, a now aged and forgotten council in modern days. But to her, this had been everything she had been aspiring for, everything that her family had worked so hard for. Finally, they all
Including Hyperion, a once good man who slowly became wrought with fear and anger. Because Thea no longer needed Hyperion now she had her children, and even his children felt no need for his love as they only needed each other. Soon, he found himself falling victim to those whispers of an uprising, no longer trusting even his own family.
And, eventually, it became too much for even him.
Hyperion acted by any means possible to stop his son from ever stealing his power....
...And drowned him in the Argyros River.
Upon hearing of Helios‘ death, Hyperion was immediately sentenced and killed by his siblings for actions of filicide. His actions had only served to sow more distrust between the generations; what previously had been a source of only rumours before.
But worse than Hyperion‘s demise, Selene also learnt of her twin brother‘s death and was distraught. Her other half was now dead and her life now felt meaningless.
...And so she followed after her sibling, drowning herself in the same river that he had lost his life to.
Within a day, Thea learnt of the news about her husband and son, and immediately ran to the river knowing what Selene might do next.
...But she was too late.
Thea searched the riverbank for hours, searching for the body of her only remaining child, but soon she became devoid of all strength as she fainted by the water…
...And a vision came to her.
In the vision her son, Helios, spoke to her and told her not to mourn their passing. That they were to become immortalised in death as living worldly natures, new Gods beyond what she could possibly imagine, becoming known as the ‘Sun‘ and the Moon‘. Helios and Selene would dance forever in the sky, chasing after one another, but never to be reunited.
Thea was both enraged and devastated upon waking from the vision. Devastated at having lost so much s o quickly... and angry at, not only her husband, but her daughter too who, unlike Helios, had purposely chosen a cowardly path to leave her.
And so Thea took off into the mortal plane, no longer caring for her previous titles or polities as the call aside everything she had previously known, Thea needed a change, a new life that she could live herself But inside, she could never forget or forgive those who had hurt lioc especially her daughter and every night, it was as if Selene mocked her still as the moved across the sky, looking down at her
The world then changed, man began to walk the land and the Titans were overthrown by the new Godo, just as Hyperion had leared before his death. But thea continued to stay neutral, knowing none of 11 concerned her anymore. To her, the mortals were ohsily onchanted with her abilities and the new Gods held no qualms with her. She was therefore left in peace,
... That is until she found hersell one day back at the Argyros River, somewhere she hadn‘t been in centuries, and saw her daughter once more. In the flesh, walking on the mortal plane, No longer a child, but a woman full grown.
Thea observed from afar under the darkening sky and watched as her daughter played with live children. Five mortal children. She saw how Selene Imprinted on them, showing them the love of a mother, Something that Thea had been forcefully robbed of because of Selene‘s actions,
Night after night, Thea would return to the river and find Selene playing with the same children under the light of the moon. And she became angry, spiteful. If her daughter had the ability to take form and walk the land once the sun was set, why did she not tell her? Was her son, Helios, the same? Did they both purposely choose to abandon her?
And so she‘d finally had enough. The next night, before her daughter could come to the riverbank to see the children, Thea killed them all and left their bodies for Selene to find.
Naturally, her daughter was heartbroken as something she had cherished so much was seemingly taken too soon. Something that Selene was already familiar with given she‘d had to relinquish all familial ties to the Gods upon her ascent to becoming the Moon. Because a God of Nature could not be involved in the politics of their kind.
However, Thea didn‘t know this and only sought retribution for the pain that had been inflicted on her. She didn‘t know of the sacrifice Selene had made to uphold her position.
But, in the end, it didn‘t matter.
Furious, Selene immediately caught Thea, there being nowhere under the moon she could hide, and was enraged at her mother for killing the children she had loved.
And whilst she couldn‘t bring harm to any mortal because of the laws that contained her, those rules did not extend to the Gods.
«Thea had little experience with the new Gods though; especially a God of Nature such as Selene. Worst still, she had become so blinded by her rage and pain that she hadn‘t been able to foresee what would happen next.
Selene quickly robbed her of her godly powers... and gifted them to the five children to breathe into them new life. Thea had only been allowed to live past the War of the New Gods because of her stance to stay out of the deity affairs. By choosing to publicly oppose Selene, she was declaring herself a threat. Something Selene realised Thea would not ever stop in her mission for revenge.
But in carrying out her punishment, Selene saw inside Thea, saw her life; her history, her battles, her pain... and she knew she did not want to kill her. She pitied her mother and felt bad for leaving her the way she did, but knew she would only continue to interfere in her life if she were to leave her be.
Selene only took what she needed. Just enough of Thea‘s powers to no longer be dangerous should she turn that anger against her once more. And she used those powers on the children, now tied to Selene through their rebirth, and each possessed a quality of Thea; some being natural to all Gods, some more
unique to Thea.
One child held the ability of strength, another with influential reverence; one with perception manipulation, another with youthful longevity... and one with foresight.
But these powers were not meant for mortals and there were unforeseeable side effects, cursing the children as a result. Since they were now children of the moon, born in the night, they would become half beast. They, and all of their descendants, were to share their bodies with that of a wolf come their eighteenth lifecycle.
But Selene couldn‘t forget what had started this mess. How it had been the unrequited love of her father that had begun the chain of events that led them here. And so Selene gifted her children destined mates. Two people that would be chosen at the time of their conception to love one another. There would be no question over their sincerity for the other as she would make them feel immense joy at just the touch, sight and smell of their partner.
Immediately after Thea‘s powers were taken, she was in agony; a part of her core having been ripped out o f her forcefully. The result was leaving her to now become almost completely mortal.
...Something much to the horror of Selene as she realised she had now inadvertently applied the laws of nature to her own mother.
Thea was now untouchable to her as mortal blood ran in her veins. And worse, she retained some of her immortality. She would now be free to roam the earth until her death, something that would never occur naturally unless forcefully robbed of her.
In order to prevent Thea from stealing her powers back, Selene quickly gave the children a blade blessed by the Argyros River water and tasked them with guarding their powers. The water was imbued with the souls of both Selene and Helios and therefore had the ability to kill even Thea. It was during this moment she showed them the ritual of how to bless the silver with water; something that would later become known as silver ‘kissed by moonlight‘.
But more so than just the silver, Selene also blessed a protection on the children. A protection where Thea would be unable to directly draw the blood of any direct descendant, preventing her from ever killing them by her hand.
After the events of that day, the five powers were passed down to only the eldest of each house, the rest only inheriting the curse of the night beast. However, without the need to utilise their blood gift, many of the chosen families never realised their full potential; most possessing no noticeable trace as it laid dormant inside them.
And as the generations of children came and multiplied, they soon began to completely forget the true history of their origin altogether. They forgot the true purpose in having the abilities... and, soon, they even forgot their worst enemy, stalking them from the shadows, slowly picking them off as the centuries went b
.. Waiting for the right moment to make that last… fatal… strike,
A moment that finally presented itself when a girl was born.
A girl who would be mated to another of the direct descendants. And with only three families left, Thea was close to becoming whole once more.
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